this is life

It's like this I guess:
Life is weird and busy and crazy and sometimes horrible and wonderful. And it's easy to get swamped with the things I have to do every day and just try to "get through it". But then I was like whoa. This is life.
It can seem like one long cycle of waking up at 6am, driving the same roads, filling my gas tank, classes, the afternoon tired phase, trying to eat something, work, homework, and on and on it goes.
But like I said, "Whoa. This is life."
All those little monotonous things. There will be different seasons, when different things fill the days. But for now this is where I am and I don't know about you, but I don't want to constantly live with the mentality of "just getting through". Sometimes it's the best we can do. But I guess my point is, as much as possible, I want to savor the things that are happening now that may never happen again. The age I am. The place I'm in. The people around me.
Because this is life.
{post originally from my instagram}


i'm still here

Hi guys. Miss me?
Life has been so busy. I got a job, I started college. Those two things alone would be enough to keep my days 100% full.

Let me fill you in...


First off, after getting back from Virginia, I graduated high school.

It took a lot of work to make everything happen (getting things set up, rehearsal, etc. etc.) But the day was amazing and I couldn't be more thankful to my fam who made it happen and made me feel so loved. Also, to my mom who saw me through everyday of homeschooling and just life in general, even when there were more downs than ups.


On May 31st Q and I celebrated 1 year of dating! We're now going on a year and 4 months, 11 of which have been long distance. Now we're both in college, close to each other, and are able to see each other nearly every day. It still amazes me. He's the best and I'm so glad God chose him for me.


In June, I started a job. This is when adulting started to hit me hard. It made me appreciate my "free" time so much more. I'm still trying to find a balance with work/school/life/family. You know how it goes.


In July, I went to the church retreat that I met Quinton at. I was given some responsibilities there that really pushed me out of my comfort zone, and into being more honest with people, and with myself. In many ways I'm still trying to process all this, but I really think that's what refreshed me to strive towards healing and hope.

In August Q +  me + mom + my sisters drove 6 hours to Arkansas to see Twenty One Pilots. I can't really sum up this experience in a blog post. Just, if you can, go. I've never felt more hopeful or inspired as I did there. This was something I'll never forget.

In August I also started college. It's been a good experience. I'm in a two-year program to get my Associate's Degree in Graphic Arts. I'm still adjusting to this new way of life. But I'm thankful for it. (No matter the lack of sleep ;))


So that's it for now. More later.
Thanks for sticking around.